My 1st Wake-up Call

Granny Rosina

My grandma was my initial spark. When I was little, she often said to me: “You’re different from the rest of the family”. For years I didn’t know what she meant by that. She saw things in me even then that no one in my family had seen. Today I am sure that she was very gifted medially, as I am. She defended me, held her protective hand over me, and taught me more in death and after death than many other people.

My grandmother’s name was Rosina. She was in the hospital and I was reluctant to visit her on Sunday because I was going on a business trip the next week. But I also knew that I would not see her again until the following Saturday. Actually, I had no time and no desire to visit her in the hospital, because my business trip already started on Sunday and I still wanted to have something of the weekend. But there was this urge in me to go to her.

Conversation on two levels

I went to her hospital room and sat down on the chair by her bed. She looked into my eyes without a word. We both knew immediately that today we would see each other for the last time in this life. Without words. Then we started a conversation on two levels. On one level, we talked like grandma and grandson. A conversation like thousands of times in hospitals between grandmas and grandchildren: How are you? How’s the food? What does the doctor say? When are you coming home? And so on.

On another level, we said goodbye to each other without words, because words were not necessary there. Only feelings were important. How much I love her, that she is a great grandma, that I miss her, that her dumplings are the best dumplings I have ever eaten in my life. She in turn made me understand that she loved me too, that I was different from the rest of the family and that she was proud of me. On the second level, there were only deep feelings, deep understanding and deep trust.

At that time I didn’t understand what was happening with between her and me and thought that I was imagining it. We talked and talked until I had to leave because of a business trip. I was wasting time because I was aware every second that we would see each other for the last time. When at some point the nurse maneuvered me out of the room, I slid down the hallway, teary-eyed, with my back against the wall, crying bitterly. After that, I switched to my “mind mode” and started my tour of duty.

Seeing subtly

On my business trip, the first two days were quite unspectacular. I checked with my mother to see how grandma was doing and did my job. The following morning changed everything in my life. I suddenly woke up at 6:27 a.m. in my hotel room without an alarm clock and saw my grandma standing ethereally at the foot of my bed. Kind of ethereal, but in her hospital pajamas. She said, “I have to go now and I want to say goodbye to you. I love you and we will meet again someday. Don’t be afraid.”

Full of panic, I called my then husband and told him in shock that my grandma had just died, she was standing at the foot of my bed saying goodbye. He calmed me down and said that I had just had a bad dream.  And if my grandma had died, my mom would have already called our house.

I was so angry at him for not believing me and at the same time so sad that I would not see her again in this world and I ended the phone call full of anger. For me there was no doubt about her death. Later he called me and told me that I had been right. She passed away exactly at 6:27 a.m. in the hospital.

Spiritual support

The weeks and months after her death were difficult for me. I felt her all the time, smelled her and felt her. She was always right behind me, so I would turn around on the street to see if she was behind me. There was a feeling in me as if she was accompanying me and was always with me. I was so confused that I was convinced I was mentally ill. But then, miraculously, a book came to me in which a medium told about contact with deceased people.

This spiritual gift was apparently in me all along and became active with the death of my grandmother. At that point in my life, I was overwhelmed with the gift and the responsibility that comes with it and let it be overgrown by my mind. Not knowing and not suspecting what I should do with it in this life.

It was only years and many aberrations later that I trained as an English medium. But I clearly felt that channeling the deceased was not right for me and, although I was good at it, I gave it up again. Because -figuratively speaking- I had set longwave as my radio station, but my broadcasts can be heard on FM. And finding the FM station was a multi-year process for me. NOW I have arrived, because FM is exactly my thing….

#thanks #unforgotten

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